It has been 15 years that I’ve known the J in my life.
He was only officially my bf when I was 25.
He became my ex-bf when I was 27.
We had our first Z when I was 27 and second Z came along two years later.
Now, we are expecting unexpected L, whom we believe will be a joy giver.
All my life, I have never loved anyone else like the way I love J. Even during those days when we were apart, he was still constantly in my mind and I always wondered how he was getting on. We had a strange ritual, that is, to spend New Year’s Eve together, be it for a meal or whatsoever. We had a few countdowns to the new years together. The one we remembered most “fondly” was in 1997. I chose to think that he was so distracted by me that he dropped his 3 month old new model Nokia mobile phone. Those were the days when we were single and we didn’t blink an eye in whatever we bought for ourselves. In our house, there is still an object of evidence of this kinda of lavishness – our Kudos sofa. :p
I am thankful that in my life, he is here to share and to embrace. He loves me as who I am and he is forever so giving and thoughtful towards me. Many a times, I feel that he places me before himself. To him, to see me happy is his expression of love. Whatever I want to do in my life, he is there to support and be there. Nothing beats seeing him at the end of each day.
Our going has been very tough but I am glad we are in this together. I know without him, I would have call it quits long ago. He is my strength to carry on. His words “you have me, darling.” stay as a lifesaver in my inner man.
I am very, very, very thankful that after walking in a BIG circle, it is still back to him and God graciously blesses me with this wonderful man. I don’t deserve such love and devotion. I know this is heaven-blessed relationship.
I love you, hubby. Since the day I know you, I love you ….
Thank You, God.
15 September 2008, 6pm
